I wonder

Now that we are as far along as we are, Rosie says we can't be away from home, we have to be close to Stanford's, Lucille Packard Children's Hospital. Seizures, Central Line infections, Mickey buttons popping out. You know, the everyday routine; oh that's our life.

I have statistics setup on the Blog so I can see: the number of people accessing a day, their ip/isp, where they live, and how many times they have returned. I wonder what your lives are like. I hope you are not suffering with anyone in your family as they battle with Cancer.

I like(d) Holidays because it always meant setting up some big adventure so Paigee could be exposed, socialize her so to speak. Just so she could have fun. At least for me, once Paigee was born fun was all about her, and her needs. My life became all about a little blonde headed darling. Now I wonder what life will be like when she is gone. I imagine all of you and what you may have done these past couple of days, picnics, water skiing, the beach, shopping.

Someday I look forward to returning to a normal life. I don't know if we will ever be free from the pain of loss of a child. People keep saying, "you'll get better, with time the pain will go away." Then the people who have lost children say, "it hurts a lot at first, then you say at least they are free from the pain, but you never forget the pain."

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