Well

Frist I have to apologize to anyone that I may have offended when I wrote that nobody's pain could be anywhere near that of losing your child. I took plenty of hits for that. Pain is pain, and it was out of line what I said. To all the people that have emailed and accused me of a scam, "the story on the Blog is not real," please stop reading. How could you make all this up ? Read if you like, but please stop emailing your hate.

Second, this morning Paigee announced that something was in her gut. Not far from the primary tumor. The child I mentioned meeting in the Day Hospital this week, their tumor went from barely noticeable to a 2 pound mass in less than one month ( waiting for surgery ). Fear Factor has nothing on this situation. Instead of Survivor Guatemala, why not something more difficult to get through, say, Survivor Lucille Packard Children's Hospital. Just an attempt at humor. There I go again making it sound like this is the worst. I don't know if I could live through worse, I really should audition for one of the Survivor shows.

When I picked Paigee up at Alex's this afternoon the rockets went off. I asked her a question as she was getting into her car seat and she lost it. She grimmaced, grabbing her head. The veins in her head were standing out. I guess you don't normally see that when a person has hair. No worry, it's bound to be normal. Even though Paigee never showed anger before the past month, this must not be related to the tumor on her head.

I'm hiding out in the office. Rosie is hiding in bed. We are hoping the Tylenol and Adavan help to bring back our little girl. The watching and waiting, well, it's not easy. Christine and John know what it is like, my heart still aches over Ben.

I noticed Cancer Baby had plenty of poems etc. It has to be a way to let off steam.

Keep reading, there has to be some happy moments coming soon !