March 2004 DullesDaily Update
11:30 AM Paigee seems to be sleeping very comfortably. Hospice was here and there are no issues to be concerned about; oh Death, you get used to that one ! "And when she starts struggling with breathing, just Bolus more Morphine so she is more comfortable", those are sure palitable words of Wisdom. How's that for advice ! Hmm, I think there's a differing opinion here somewhere. After all these months fighting to do everything possible to make her life better, now they telll you to drug her up so she just doesn't feel the suffocation. Now how is that making her more comfortable I ask myself ! "Well if you give her oxygen that will just prolong it a couple more days."
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posted by c @ 1:45 PM
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Lori here,
Reading your last couple entries bring me back. I get that feeling I told you of earlier. The "think about something else because I am going to hyperventilate if I don't" feeling. When I say my heart aches for you, it is literal. It really does. Losing a child is not the most fun thing you can do to occupy your time. Chad went a lot quicker and I don't know which is worse. Just the fact of deciding: more oxygen? more drugs? recusitate? Where is the mercy? So painful I know.
I heard a song this morning (country, the saddest kind at times like this!) I thought of you, of us, of Ben...
It said something like "not being able to get through the day sometimes, but holding on and hoping to go, one day to the place where the streets are lined with gold, because that is where you will be..."
This day has been overcast outside and a lump is in my throat for what you are about to experience.
Praying for you.
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