March 2004 DullesToday was a hard day..
All the preparation getting ready to bring Paigee into the World is being undone. It's so hard today as I preapare her bedroom set to be taken by a close friend of the family. Early into her pregnancy, Rosie and I sought out the best children's furniture to bring home so Paigee would have the finest furniture; crib, dresser, side table, rocker. Today I cry, "It's not fair God, why did she have to die." Emptying out the dresser and side table, putting all Paigee's things into boxes is one more nail in the coffin; she isn't coming back. I'm glad Rosie is out of the house so she doesn't have to live through this heart ache. There is no end to the misery. As often as I kept that happy face I've had since February 2003, at times it fades into tears. What I wouldn't do to get her back....
posted by c @ 11:51 AM
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I've thought that so many times since Jason left us. His birthday was yesterday. How can his birthday come without him here? I got some stocking stuffers today--I only need to fill 3 stockings now. It was always 4. I miss him so much. Why did he have to go?
Pam
Lori here,
You are so strong. I cannot bring myself to go through Chad's stuff. I had just bought him a "big boy" bunkbed right before he got sick and it is still in there. Every time I open a drawer I can't bear it, and shut it again. My heart is teetering on the edge. I really admire you and you have not left my thoughts. Please know that. What TJ and I would do to bring our boy back...Sami misses her little bro' She will turn sixteen soon and was only a sister for 5 short years. Not fair.
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