Cremation

The Cremation happens Monday. We have not picked out an urn yet. I don't think I will be able to attend the Cremation. Alan the Funeral Director mentioned some cultures did attend the Cremation. I think we will keep Paigee in the simple box provided by the Funeral Home until we work up the courage to order the urn.

We have decided not to close the door to Paigee's room. We won't let it remain a shrine though however. So many difficult subjects to deal with during this time. The overwhelming grief has not happened yet. I removed some earlier posts about the actual Medium and then one about filling the void, they seemed out of character. We have plead our case with the real Allison Du Bois though hoping for an appointment.

I laid in bed awake almost all night, a Vigil, a visit that never happened. I can't forget..