7 Days

Paigee made it 7 days in First Grade. I guess looking back, to have made it even that far was a Miracle. I keep looking for Miracles when the year from Aug 2004 to Aug 2005 were just that. For all practical purposes she was riding on the wings of the Angel's then. Even now I have to keep reminding myself how much more we got than others. Oh, I can't tell you how sweet Kelly and Rachel were. I'm afraid to ask about Connie, she was a relapse like Paigee. Angela was so lucky to have so much time with her baby in remission.

Tonight Paigee interacted with me. I was so excited. Almost afraid to say too much for fear she would want me to leave. I've learned to walk that tight rope. I feel like I can spend time with her again. I shouldn't listen to sad music when I Blog. Even Ben's Father John agreed he had the same problem with music after Ben's passing. What's the right way to talk about a child that is no longer with us ? Why didn't I take some psych classes instead of all that Calculus ! My mind is mush, it wouldn't matter now anyway.

Back to Paigee ! She is very quiet. She can still flip channels on the TV, Mom is needed once in a while though. I think tomorrow I'll camp out with Rosie and Paige all day, I'll try not to let my feelings get hurt if I'm run off. I wish Mindy or Lynn or Dr. Obrien would come by so I could see Paigee hug again ! Rosie and I stopped getting hugs when the girl turned 5, "Mom ( or Dad in my case ), I'm a Tom Boy !" I guess you never give up.

I can't help but wonder how the Kid's in Paigee's classes are handling this situation. I hope they aren't hurting like me. Pia is a sweet little East Indian Princess. Pia's Mother, Mahla, called last week. Pia was so anxious to see Paigee. They were keeping Journal's this year. Each Child had to choose a friend and write their name in the Journal, Pia chose Paigee Mahla said. I can't imagine how hard it will be for those Parents to tell their children about Paige. My little Paige.

Last night I was thinking about Paige. When Paige was around 2, Rosie started to take her to the Park to meet other kids. Paige would pick out other Children and ask Rosie to introduce her. Paigee wanted to meet the World. She never had a bad day. Paige was/is our Passion. That's going to be a big space to fill.

How bout some Neil Young, that should be cheery .... ( torrent away )