March 2004 Dullesdepressabration
Such a sad day the 20th was. That day marked the 1 yr anniversary of Ben's death. As we are approaching 20 October I can imagine myself in John and Christine's shoes, and of course it brings tears to my eyes. Today a co-worker saw Paige's picture on my computer desktop and wouldn't take a subtle hint I didn't want to talk about it. That brought tears to my eyes. The ever present falling from the cliff of losing control over my emotions.
posted by c @ 5:13 PM
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Lori here,
The Diff's have been on my mind a lot. So have you guys. This really sucks. The second year seems harder. Maybe because the first year you're kind of numb or in shock or something. I don't know. Yesterday I went to a Psychologist for the first time in my life. Pretty draining and cost a lot to tell me what I am feeling is normal!
It is hard when you don't want to talk and people don't get the hint isn't it? I think it is hard for them to understand our pain. Especially when we don't understand it either. I get angry and frustrated when people start talking about their cousin or uncle or friend who went through leukemia, etc and how they "know how I feel". whatever.
I love you guys
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