Unrelenting fear

I guess this is really it. Paigee is still in bed 99.8% of the day, she almost has energy to channel surf, Nick/Cartoon Network/Disney. I think she had a couple of spoon fulls of yougurt tonight.

Probably not uncommon to only want her Mother right now; Nana and I are errand running most of the time. I haven't given up praying. Ben's Mother Christine, she didn't give up on prayer either.

Rosie and I still have happy faces. So far Paigee hasn't said anything about bein hooked up to a morphine pump 24 hours a day. She hasn't asked if she is going to get better, I thank God she isn't aware of her fate. Paigee knows about death and believes in God and Jesus, she just doesn't know that the Grim Reaper on Billy and Mandy is the guy that comes knocking on your door

Paigee's friend Andrew called today ( actually his Mother ) and wanted to know if she could play tomorrow. Isn't that a cruel reminder. I don't think Yvette understood me when I said Paigee had been in bed since Thursday, Sep 8th. They must think she has a cold or something. Rosie's sister is going to speak to Mrs. Parker tomorrow to give her the reality check, Paigee isn't going back to 1st Grade.